Together We Stand

What a tragic and heartbreaking last several days.

On Sunday, I came to the realization that I had been suppressing the flood of emotions I have felt over the last several days.  I don’t relish feeling indignant or sitting in emotions of grief (who does?). Too often, I ignore them until I’m forced to face them.  However, two days ago, I felt the Holy Spirit lay a firm impression on my heart, saying, “No Nat, you NEED to feel this”.  Then I broke down and wept.  

I wept as I reflected upon the unspeakable tragedy and murder of George Floyd, Ahmaud Arbery and so, so many others before them.  How can people fail to see the humanity in others?  How is it that we still live in a world where people regard others as “inferior” based on the color of their skin?  Why can’t everyone see and value the intrinsic worth each individual is endowed by their Creator; HOW IS THAT SO HARD?!  These were (and are) just a few of the questions screaming through my mind.

In this moment of reflection, I also came face to face with my own white privilege, a term I used to avoid.  I came to the realization that the idea of even thinking of disengaging from this situation and these emotions is the epitome of white privilege. Yet, situations like these are the tragic reality that many people face everyday.  They don’t get the privilege of disengaging.

I know the more I reflect, the more I will be faced with many other thoughts and emotions.  I know I will see many more areas where I am privileged, and I also know I will see more areas where I need to grow.  However, I am committed to changing.

My Apology and Promise

To all my BIPOC readers out there, I apologize.  I apologize for keeping myself in ignorance for so long. I apologize for not educating myself on important issues that impact your daily life, welfare and safety.  I apologize for not taking an active stand in the past.  I apologize for settling for being “not racist”, thinking that was sufficient.

I promise to do better.  I promise to learn.  I promise not to turn a blind eye to painful situations and challenging conversations.  I promise to take action and engage.

I am indignant and I am with you.  Together we stand.